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Date:2007-06-03 18:52
Subject:google define: narcissistic personality disorder
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Definitions of narcissistic personality disorder on the Web:

* A personality disorder characterized by a pervasive pattern of grandiosity (in fantasy or behavior), need for admiration, and lack of empathy. www3.uta.edu/sswtech/sapvc/information/teens13_15/Teens_(ages13-15)_Glossary.htm

* persons with this disorder present severely overly-inflated feelings of self-worth, grandiosity, and superiority over others. Persons with narcissistic personality disorder often exploit others who fail to admire them, and are overly sensitive to criticism, judgment, and defeat.
www.frankfordhospitals.org/healthinfo/adult/mentalhealth/glossary.html

* Narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) is a personality disorder that is characterized by extreme feelings of self-importance, a high need for admiration, and a lack of empathy. NPD can be considered as a pathological form of narcissism. It is estimated that 0.7-1% of the general population are afflicted with NPD. Most people with NPD (50-75%, according to the DSM) are men.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narcissistic_personality_disorder

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Date:2007-04-24 19:46
Subject:2 daaaayssss till Cali!!!! XD
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can't waaait!!

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Date:2007-03-18 10:58
Subject:Thursday @ Hiro Ballroom
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eh, it's been a while. so i figure i might as well... i've pretty much side stepped away from the trance scene and into indie rock/techno/electroclash. it's much darker, smaller scene, way different crowd, even more innovative music. not nearly as superficial as some of the stuff i used to be heavily into. anyways, there are the vids... hope everyone's well.









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Date:2007-03-17 01:10
Subject:skiieeooo!!
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wow! i had the craziest most awesome weekend and it's only Friday night!! XD . Pics, vids, story up later maybe... though more likely on Facebook. Hope everyone is well. Peace up! A-Town down!

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Date:2006-10-15 20:43
Subject:high flyers!
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Mood: random

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OMGWTFBBQ!


so how was digital life this year? did julio and ant win again? how was the ps3?

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Date:2006-09-19 00:21
Subject:My Trip to Toronto
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You all know I road tripped up to Toronto over Labor Day weekend. Unfortunately, as soon as I got back I fell incredibly ill and was unable to make a post about my trip (or do much of anything) right when I came back soooo here it is!

Well it was a 13 hour drive which included stopping in Pennsylvania to pick up a friend. We drove through NY, NJ, PA, then NY again and eventually made our way to Canada and into Toronto. Hurricaine Ernesto followed us north for the entire drive so it was pretty rainy and wet the whole way up. By the time we arrived this is what we saw.

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Temperatures were also in the 40's which I was totally unprepared for. We stayed at a REALLY nice hotel right in the middle of downtown Toronto. It was equivalent to getting a hotel in Times Square or Colombus Circle. We were in the middle of everything. It was evening though, and after such a long drive and being incredibly exhausted and under-fed, we were off to our first party which was more of a backyard rave/BBQ. I'd never been to anything of the like.

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Drunk white people, bugging out in the freezing rain greeted us after we drove around looking for the place. As so very suburban as this was, we all met lots of cool Canadian kids and had a nice time before heading off into the streets of what seemed like a very 'college/university type downtown area that pretty much looked like the West Village in Manhattan. We ate at a restaraunt there then headed home for the night.

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Finally, some freakin' sleep. The hotel itself was FREEEZING but they had a gym, free internet cafe's everywhere, and tons of other shit that was cool. Some people though, acted like they'd never been in a hotel before. :-P

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Sunday morning we split up and roamed downtown Toronto which was cool. We found that some things were very different.

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I'm not much of a smoker but they had bunches of marijuana shops and stations where people could go to safely and legally smoke their weed or buy their weed products, and go on about their business. The vibe I got while there was that things were definately NOT uptight. They had tons of random sex shops and strip clubs that were very blatant and had huge facades like Times Square billboards. The strip clubs there exercised Canadian rules, not US rules. You could look, touch, whatever.

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A lot of it reminded me of NYC. I loved the fact that it was deveolped, but not overdeveloped to the point of the streets being filthy and overcrowded. Everything was really nice and clean.

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I forget the name of this place but the area pretty much seemed like 34th Street in Manhattan or a mini-Times Square. I loved the fact that Toronto was so incredibly cosmopolitain. There were people from tons of different backgrounds and ethnicities living there and there wasn't an overwhelming amount of one type of person. There was a really nice mix of Japanese, Blacks, Indians, Koreans, Europeans, and native Canadians. The vibe seemed really chill among the people and they didn't seem slow, backwards, or prejudice in any way. Some Canadians there spoke fluent European languages, some Koreans there spoke fluent Spanish. It was awesome.

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Some of the food was madness. These hot dogs and sausages were HUGE foot long and just... huge and they only cost $3. Oh yeah, money... well the exchage rate took a huge dip while we were there. When we got there, we could exchange 1 US dollar for about 1.98 Canadian, but within the first day the exchange rate dropped so that 1 US dollar exchanged for 1.07. canadian. Taxes there were nuts. I'd buy a pack of gum which cost 1 dollar, but after taxes cost 2.15. Everything there was taxed twice... Canada tax and Toronto tax, hence they have free health care and they all seemed much happier there.

Sunday night, the reason we all went up there, Labour of Love. OMG WTF BBQ stellar! They combined two mega mega clubs which created for a huge 13 hour party/rave/FUN! The place had about 10 rooms, each the size of a NYC club, multiple levels and all. The place was packed with well over 10,000 people.

Waiting on line there were tons of fireworks, a samba band, and pyrotechnics guys who were jumping around on trampoline while being shot with flame throwers. Observe.

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As soon as I got in I marvelled at the size of the place. Waiting for a bunch of other friends I decided to head up to the Skybar which was a massive rooftop section that looked like this.

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The view from the roof was spectacular.

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The rooms inside... huge.

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The people were awesome.

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There were over 25 DJ's and they were all fucking amazing. Tons of different genres spun in the different rooms and they were all great.

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Armin Van Buuren was on point.

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Ferry Corsten played an amazing 6 hour set through to 10:00am.

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The lighting was awesome.

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Best weekend ever! I had tons of fun. Met tons of people. Had lots of laughs. Memories to last a lifetime. We stayed pretty much the entire time and partied our asses off. We were supposed to jump into the car and get going right after the party ended but we were all DONE so we extended our hotel reservation and slept. When we got back on the road ... oh wow we were all tired as hell. We had to wait on a 4 hour car line at the border just to get back across. It took 13 hours to get back so we weren't back until early Tueday morning. Can't WAIT to do it all again next year.



:-)

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Date:2006-09-01 00:04
Subject:Ooooo Canadaaaa!!!
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Wells, I'm leaving for Toronto tomorrow to go party it up and tour the city for Labour Day weekend ... jeez, I keep using the British/Canadian spelling of 'labor'. I'll be road tripping there with some pah-tee people for over 9 hours. Ouch! I'll be sure to post up lots of pics when I get back.

:-P

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Date:2006-08-07 12:53
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Date:2006-07-20 00:40
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Yesterday I had a root canal done. Ouch! I've got 2 more to go and lots more visits to the dentist after that. Fortunately my dentist is a cool guy who went to college with my parents. I can't wait 'till it's all over with though. He did some serious slicing and dicing!

This evening I'll be @ CBGB's to FINALLY have a taste of Adams band at 8. I've always wanted to go to CBGB's. Now I'll get to go, hear some awsome screaming metal, and get the scoop on Japan from Anita. On a rare occasion like this I'd bring a camera. Arrgh! I need a new one!

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Date:2006-07-18 11:11
Subject:Dream
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I had a dream last night that God revealed Himself to mankind. It's hard to describe. He looked something like a dark sort of angel. Black robes, white wings and I don't remember the face. Nonetheless, most people were amazed and humbled by His presence, but some guy was acting stupid. He possibly didn't believe that it could be God Himself. He got a shotgun and shot God in the face and killed him.

Immediately preceeding the attack on God tons and tons and tons of zombies were released upon the Earth ... or at least where I was (in a church at the time). Things got pretty scary. Lots of running, lots of faking out zombies who were chasing me "Ooo! Broke you!". One of my brothers, the one directly younger than myself, was with me. He wasn't very good at running and dodging zombies and he was holding me back and really putting me in a bit of danger along with himself. He had zombies on him a lot and I kept having to help him out. Eventually we were cornered, sorrounded by a fence. I saw a freaking gorilla zombie and that's when I said to myself "fuck this, this is a dream and I'm out!" So I woke up.

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Date:2006-07-12 08:57
Subject:This past Weekend
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[start] This pic pretty much says it all.

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Yes it was great. Yes you missed it. [/end]

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Date:2006-07-05 13:56
Subject:1355.90 - 815 = how can you sleep at night?
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Mood: dead inside

It's really humid today. It was so yesterday as well. I can't stand it. I don't even know how I'm at work right now. I'm more burnt out than I've ever ever been. I need to chill out a bit. I think I'm living fast... a little too fast to keep up with myself. Hanging out yesterday was great. I almost never get to just hang out with people these days. Everything is always scheduled events. Other than me being burnt out all the time things are well. Party on Saturday under the Brooklyn Bridge. Then meeting up w/ppl next week and the week after for food after work. Mmmm, sushi and alligator!

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Date:2006-07-03 13:29
Subject:just a thought
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Mood: stressed

It's a nice day for a walk. In 2 days it'll be exactly 1 year that I've been 'on my own' so to speak. Here's to one more year.

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Date:2006-07-02 20:34
Subject:-1
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Surely worse than being a foul, insolent, loathsome creature, is being just that, while actually believing that you're good natured, trustworthy, and selfless. Clearly hypocracy unveils itself in a multitude of manifestations. May the Lord our God grant you the untimely death your kind so deserves.





Date:2006-06-26 16:21
Subject:Transformers Movie
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http://www.transformersmovie.com/

speaks for itself I guess.

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Date:2006-06-24 21:28
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when i grow up i wanna be an astronaut.





Date:2006-06-16 15:59
Subject:ashes to ashes
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Last night I saw something that I'll never see again for as long as I live...

A Mexican Golfer!!!??? Yeah... in the Bronx, waiting for the train at 11:30pm in FULL golf attire. Golf shoes, blue, green and yellow plaid properly lengthed shorts, a sweater vest, polo shirt underneath the vest, golf glove, cap, big ass golf bag full of clubs etc.

At that point I came to question reality. Was this all just a simmulation? Was I experiencing some kind of time-space disturbance? I think it was one of the most serious glitches in the Matrix that I've ever experienced. It really defied all logic.

Anyways, as usual, I'm here in the office, watching the day hours roll by from behind the windows as the florescent lights beam down on me while I sit in front of the computer and paperwork. Everyone left around 1pm as is customary here on Fridays. It's pretty much just the IT guys still here, but they're always here. No supervisors et cetera.

It's a tad boring but I'm fine. I'm a pretty introspective person. There's always tons going on in my mind so it's not really hard for me to do work that doesn't require too much. I might as well be on an episode of The Rugrats the way my mind occupies itself when no one's around. Most of the time people are around though so that's cool too.

I find it interesting how limited time becomes as I slowly immerse myself into the world of the fully functional adult. I find myself planning so many things now waaaay ahead of time because I just don't have the time, or can't make the time to do things at the spur of the moment. I can't even count how many parties I've turned down in the past month because I was invited a week or two in advance, which isn't enough notice anymore. I'm supposed to meet people for food after work, alligator tail and whatnot (omg can't wait), and the earliest I could schedule was mid July. WTF? LOL.

So yeah I've definately been doing lots of work and lots of scheduled partying, but very very little actual hanging out. It ends up being fun to figure out new ways to be the most productive with my time. Lots of planning ahead, AND lots of enjoying the present. It's just faster now than before.

Father's day is coming up which is no biggie. I'm more excited at the prospect of sending my dad and his wife to Hawaii next year for his 50th birthday! It's gonna be the most awsome feeling to surprise him and finally give something back and show that his 23 years of effort actually translates into tangible things as well.

My mom turns 50 the year after. I'm so glad I have a lot more time to save up for her since her birthday is in November, because she deserves 10 times more. I just still can't decide which place is good enough for her though. First thing that comes to mind is The Fiji Islands though. What other places are nice?

Damn half-a-century old farts! I love those guys though. They're okay people. Ha! :-P

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Date:2006-06-10 22:15
Subject:Party people!!! :-D
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Date:2006-06-06 17:14
Subject:It's lonely at the top
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Leaving work in about 10 minutes. Hurray :-) . Heading over to St. Marks to see how much a tattoo costs at the shop over there.

I'm still thinking about whether or not to go skydiving this month or next month with some friends. What do you guys think?

Hope everyone is well. Ciao!

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Date:2006-06-02 20:40
Subject:wow.
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Mood: yawn

I never thought it could be so hard to get paid for doing nothing.

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